So, I didn't think it was possible....

 But Tuesday ended up worse.

Oh, it started out okay.

But in the afternoon, he argued with me when I reminded him he was grounded and could not go to his friend's house (across the back yard)

I was busy upstairs with my daughter and he walked out. I thought he was reading quietly in his room.

When I discovered this, and called him home, I told him he was grounded to his room for doing that.

My husband, however, thought this was an opportune time to berate me for "letting it happen".  Mind you this is not a toddler that needs constant eye contact to keep safe (well, almost, but I think you know what I mean)

I didn't "let him" leave. He chose to leave.  But that started a whole tirade about my poor parenting skills and about how he (my husband) warned me that this would happen years ago. How this is my fault because I'm the parent at home without a full-time career. Etc, etc.

It got worse.

If you know me in person, this is really painful

He came upstairs as I was watching "Deadliest Catch" and wanted to watch last week's "Lost". I thought that was inconsiderate, but rather than fight, I ended up giving him the remote a few (maybe 10) minutes later.

He started talking, ranting, berating (oh fairly quietly, not yelling) and unleashing years of resentment and frankly I don't know if we can survive this or not.

His perspective is that I'm not supportive of him and his career, that I have lousy housekeeping skills (I can't deny that) and am a lousy parent and wife.  I'll spare you the gory details, but it was all hurtful.  I think he wants a temporary separation. Or at least mentioned it for the shock value.

My perspective is that we should have gone to counseling YEARS ago, but we're there now and that counseling should be a first step before a separation.

And without counseling for perspective, I don't think a separation has any positive merits at. all. What good could it possible do? It gives space and distance, but with what? No positive reinforcement.

My perspective is that if we disagree about parenting, finance, housekeeping, etc we should talk about it. Not call names, etc. I'm no saint, but I've put up with years of verbal bullying and yes, running interference when he is waaay too harsh on our son.

No matter how bad my son has screwed up, he shouldn't be called a loser all the time.

I can't write anymore.

I fell asleep at 1 AM. I can't even process all this.

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